A matter of minutes

I've been thinkingAbout you and me
Maybe I was just Seeing what I wanted to see
You can call me crazy But you know this time I swore That I wouldn't run But I can't do that anymore
I can't find a way to stay And I can't see my way to go
But I can't give up without a fight.
I can pack myself up in a matter of minutes, Leave you all far behind
All of my old world and all the things in it are hard to find
If they ever were mine
You've been trying And I know it's been hard And I'm afraid of All this blood in my heart
If there's one thing certain It's there ain't nothing for sure
And I want to run But I can't do that anymore
I can't meet you half way And I can't have it my way And I can't give up without a fight
I could count the good times we had On one hand All the rest was A sort of means to the end
Well not it's done And I can never Go back to where I was before And I wanna run...I can get myself clean in a matter of minutes
And get it wrong every time All of my whole world and all the things in it are hard to, hard to find
Everything change in a matter of minutesAnd nothing was saved in timeAll of my old world and all the things in it are hard to find
But they nevernever never were mine
~Shawn Colvin

The art of letting go

There has been some crying these days because I had to let someone go. I just knew it was the right thing for me to do.

Someone is out there alone again but I'm sure not for long. What does one do when people are not right for one another? We have to move on.

I'm not going to go too deep into this right now as I don't know what else to think. It just has to be done and thinking about it only keeps one into it again and again.

I don't feel good about having to pull the trigger and I hope he finds Love and Happiness in his new endeavors as I hope for myself going forward.

Namaste!

The wheel came back around

What an exhausting week and a half! Not all bad; just challenging.

Love is always in the air I feel really great!

Daughters are doing well, mom & dad are well, my best friends support me, my Lab still looks forward to see me and love is all around. It is US remember Christopher?

Of course I can't help but sing...

"From time to time, I have regrets for all the things I didn't say... that were on my list.

From time to time, my memory slips,
But you're the one thing in my life I won't forget.

There'll never be a minute of the day... I won't think of you.
My feelings are so strong in me... I feel it through and through.

There'll never be a night that's so dark.. that we won't shine.
Or a dream that we've lost.. that we can't find.

You'll always be.. the one for me,
I think of you from time to time and in between."
~Rascal Flats

Weary and unsure

Listen to the rhythm of the falling rain,
Telling me just what a fool I've been.
I wish that it would go and let me cry in vain, and let me be alone again.

Now the only boy I've ever loved has gone away. Looking for a brand new start.
But little does he know that when he left that day, along with him he took my heart.

Rain, please tell me now does that seem fair.
For him to steal my heart away when he don't care,
I can't love another when my heart's somewhere far away.

Listen to the rhythm of the falling rain,
Telling me just what a fool I've been,
I wish that it would go and let me cry in vain, and let me be alone again.

Rain, won't you tell him that I love him so.
Please ask the sun to set his heart aglow.
Rain in his heart and let the love we know start to grow.
~The Cascades

Another spin on the wheel again.

Mommy time

Opps I forgot...

I took a mini vacation while both girls were on the playscape.

Weekend sleep-overs

Whewwww.... what a weekend.

The 6 yr old had not seen her friend recently moved for almost 2 weeks. Bonkers is a nice mild way of putting it. She needed her friend and what was better was to have a sleep-over.

Her swim suit was immediately put on Sat morning at 8:00 a.m. sharp so she could go swimming with her friend around 2:00 p.m. Simply put; anticipation.

The 6 yr old gets the finest princess treatment; breakfast in bed and Chick fil A for lunch before 2:00. Then it's off to the pool we go. We were unable to stay too long because her girlfriends brother was acting up and getting tired; he's 3. Off to the playscape we go and on our way home we sing to "The more boys I meet, the more I love my dog" in the truck.

A bath was desperately needed later before dinner. Guess what dinner was? Pizza!

Then it was dinner and a movie with the Chipmunks.

Oh.... it doesn't end here. All night long even as I desperately tried to keep them upstairs in the 6 yr olds room and maybe sleep; a big bowl of popcorn. Of course not! They kept coming down stairs for something and not at all sleepy; it's 11:00 a.m. for goodness sake!

It doesn't stop here friends. The next day it was waffles at our favorite eatery with a playscape and all.

What was the most interesting part of this was that the 6 yr olds girlfriends mother was having lunch with friends there. I also was able to sit with my best friend as well because she just came in from church. Waffles started at 10:00 a.m. and we did not leave until after 3:00 p.m. Our wait staff was certainly happy to see us go.

Back home again and the girls were 11 on the dial from all the sugar. Then the calvery came knocking on my door. My daughters girlfriends mother came to get her.

Wheeeewwwwww....... I savored my bottle of wine only for a short time that evening.

Ok; I hope I'm not making it sound like it was that bad. It was a very fun time and I didn't even have to go to the gym to get the amount of exercise I did. Both girls are precious and "thank Heaven for little girls, what would little boys do?"

Namaste!

Sex in the City

Did I mention "Sex in the City?"

Because my TV is held hostage by a 6 yr old and Disney Channel, I didn't get to see the entire series. Whoever was the writer; Hats off to you. I can't wait to get it on DVD.

Anyway, what a great time with my friends Carolyn and Suzanne. I think I saw a napkin being used to wipe Carolyn's eyes; it was allergies right?

Ok; lets think about who in our group of friends resembles Carrie, Samantha, Charlotte or Miranda?

Namaste!